Venting

I am also done (excuse my language in this post) giving a fuck! I'm serious now. I thought that I was just too attached and was tired of how things were working out, so I thought maybe sicne the best time was when we first started dating and I didn't care that much maybe things would be better. So many girls come out to you, get close to you, try to play with you... yes, I get pissed of at them and want to tell them off because these girls obviously have no respect that you are in a relationship and have no respect for me. Especially when two of them tried being friends with me and one is still trying and now I think realizes the boundaries.

But, yeah this is how it's going to go down. If you don't care, I won't either. If you wanna go hang out with a girl who I don't like, fine I don't care. You want to hide things from me, fine I don't care. You want to just not be open with me even though I tell you all I can so I can get it in return, fine I don't care. You can cheat, I don't care, just know that if I find out there will be concequences. You want to hurt me, fine I don't care. The reason I worried in the first place is because I cared. Sorry that I'm still stuck with how I thought relationships were kinda suppose to be because of my last fucked up relationship and I don't even know what a normal relationship is. And I know I'm just venting right now, but I'm done giving a fuck. I'm done being the one to talk first, to ask first, to care first. I have made sacrafices in all my relationships and the guys always seem to never really realize how hard that is for me. I'm done. I still love him with all my heart and would be torn if we broke up, and I am happy. I don''t understand and I'm tired of trying to talk to you about it. Now it's your turn. (:


By the way, don't take everything I just said seriously, I am jsut venting the only way I know how at the moment.