I have been thinking a lot tonight. Yeah, doesn't happen much in my life eh? Anyways. I know the point of life and living is to have the living/full life experience but I know that when you die you don't take anything with you. I'm not going to say there is a heaven or hell, maybe even you go into a deep painful sleep and have those black dreams you don't remember? What if life is a dream. You get the nightmares and you get the unimaginable. Kind of like a "pinch me" moment.
Is it a bad thing that I want be to older and get my life started? Be truly more independent. Be able to experience this so called life. See what this world actually has to offer. Why does happiness always have to go? See, you're overjoyed for a certain time then it always has to end. Life lesson right there. You'll be happy with life and happy to live; we are going to have to die some day, and who knows when that will happen. Maybe on an icy highway, natural causes, or at the wrong place at the wrong time. Sure, I agree that life is a great gift and not a privledge but really, do these nightmares have to come along with it. Why can't there be no religion, everyone stays with there own beliefs and not make an organization out of it. Sure there are common interests but really to be having war, poverty, all this? It's ridiculous.
If people hurt other people, are we suppose to not get close to one another? But; yes yes, I know we are too social and drama driven to do that. Which I think people need to stop being so egocentric! But what is there to lose? It's just kind of getting to me, when will one person be happy forever? There will always be something unhappy in their life, in everyone's life. May as well raise hell while your here or try to make a difference?
What do we do now?
Thursday, December 30, 2010
Wednesday, December 22, 2010
I Got A Feeling
Past few days have been pretty slow, boring and a little lazy. Okay, well really lazy. Saw my boy today, gave each other christmas gifts. I think he really liked his. He opened mine first... it was a grey v-neck sweater, green v-neck t-shirt, playboy cologne, black wallet, pot of gold chocolates and an engraved black picture frame with a picture of us and a note. Hehe! I know I was blushing the whole time, and he was also kinda red too! Haha I felt like I accomplished something today! Spent a lot of the day with him, saw a friend of his and a friend from Lloyd that I have not seen in so long. Then I went over to my BFF's house and gave her her gift. I think she liked it as well! I loved hers! A picture of us (me with my double chin hehe) in a cute soulmates picture frame. OH! And Jason gave me amazing black and aqua Nike shoes! Man, then tomorrow is going to be great too!
Hopefully going to see her again and chill then go out after Jason gets off work and go dancing! All white Christmas rave! WOO! Then next day, Christmas Eve, I am staying home, stuffing my face, watching tv and drinking with my dad and brother! Gonna be some day. Haha last year, I swear I gained like 10 pounds that one day. I ate SO much. Doing it once again this year! Haha. Gonna be such a blast. Then christmas, going to my mom's grandparents for dinner. So far, this break is fantastic!
Let's keep it coming! (:
Au revoir xo
Hopefully going to see her again and chill then go out after Jason gets off work and go dancing! All white Christmas rave! WOO! Then next day, Christmas Eve, I am staying home, stuffing my face, watching tv and drinking with my dad and brother! Gonna be some day. Haha last year, I swear I gained like 10 pounds that one day. I ate SO much. Doing it once again this year! Haha. Gonna be such a blast. Then christmas, going to my mom's grandparents for dinner. So far, this break is fantastic!
Let's keep it coming! (:
Au revoir xo
Thursday, December 9, 2010
Secret Admirer
Yes okay? I am a teenage girl that is 'in love' but really, this is something more. I'm not one of those girls that just says it or says they love that guy within 3 days or 2 weeks. Me and this boy waited 2-3 months. Sure may be short but we were seeing each other a while before that. I could go on and on about how perfec this man is, how amazing he is, and just my feelings but is that what you really want to hear? How about the first time we met? May not want to hear it but I bet it's a lot better than other people's stories.
It was in November, either th day of or the day after I got back from Winnipeg. Ex had broken up with me the night before I had left. Anyways, driving on the other side of town and (my car being a piece of junk) I accidentally rear end him. ): OOPSIE! I end up leaving two scratches on his bumper. It was totally embarrassing because i was with my best friend and he was with his 'friend' who I thought was his girlfriend and she kept glaring at us. My friend was going to hit her.Anywho, people start showing up, met his parents... unfortunately... and trade information. He texts me either that night or the day after when I was on the phone with my ex (who I was getting back together with) and he didn't like this boy I rear ended. Told me not to talk to him. And this boy wanted to apologize for being so angry and take me out to coffee. HOW SWEET? I find this summer when I was with him and his friend, THAT; the next day he went to school and told him "Dude, I got rear ended!" and his friend knowing that he lvoes his car is like "OHNO!" and he says "It's okay though, she was really cute." Hehe Made my night!
I hope he doesn't read this, and if he does it has to either be never or after the christmas break because I may be talkinga bout what I got him! My goodness! Am I excited, but super nervous, to give him his present. I made it super cheesy! And it's about to get CHEESIER!
Going on to 7 months and hopefuly going to keep going. He;s my number one and the real deal! A keeper!
Thanks for all the lies (:
Thank you! XO
It was in November, either th day of or the day after I got back from Winnipeg. Ex had broken up with me the night before I had left. Anyways, driving on the other side of town and (my car being a piece of junk) I accidentally rear end him. ): OOPSIE! I end up leaving two scratches on his bumper. It was totally embarrassing because i was with my best friend and he was with his 'friend' who I thought was his girlfriend and she kept glaring at us. My friend was going to hit her.Anywho, people start showing up, met his parents... unfortunately... and trade information. He texts me either that night or the day after when I was on the phone with my ex (who I was getting back together with) and he didn't like this boy I rear ended. Told me not to talk to him. And this boy wanted to apologize for being so angry and take me out to coffee. HOW SWEET? I find this summer when I was with him and his friend, THAT; the next day he went to school and told him "Dude, I got rear ended!" and his friend knowing that he lvoes his car is like "OHNO!" and he says "It's okay though, she was really cute." Hehe Made my night!
I hope he doesn't read this, and if he does it has to either be never or after the christmas break because I may be talkinga bout what I got him! My goodness! Am I excited, but super nervous, to give him his present. I made it super cheesy! And it's about to get CHEESIER!
Going on to 7 months and hopefuly going to keep going. He;s my number one and the real deal! A keeper!
Thanks for all the lies (:
Thank you! XO
Wednesday, December 8, 2010
Seasons
Christmas is just a time for stress. Probably would appear that if it weren't for a time for togetherness, there would be a lot more deaths in the world. Rather be dead then being stressed with this holiday!
Yes, that's correct! Christmas shopping. Good and bad... Always fun to get presents for another person and you usually know the great gift for them too, you must also love receiving gifts. Always surprising! EXCEPT, when you don't know what the hell to get them. Especially, your siginificant other! My lord! I wish guys were just as easy as shopping for girl gifts. Girls typically either get jewelry, roses, chocolates, something all cute and lovey. Guys... that is a difficult one. Can't really get them a neckalce, or roses, or a plush animal! C'mon! But, I'm almost finished my shopping. Finished my boyfriend's gift today. Needs a little extra but that will be done closer to christmas!
Had a swell day with my very close best friend. Rarely see her anymore since she moved schools. It was a great time! Now I need to figure out what to get her! (: All I am waiting for is the break, slepeing in. Not going to school in the cold mornings when it's all dark (even though I have a first period spare). Celebrate Christmas and New years! Then soon after that will be finals, then valentines, then Hawaii, then my boy;s birthday. YIKES! And I also plan on getting his birthday present from hawaii! That'll be new :D.
Anywho... 6 and a half more days of school. Thank you God!
Stay cool and be in school! I'll think of something more meaningful to talk about next time! :D
XO
Yes, that's correct! Christmas shopping. Good and bad... Always fun to get presents for another person and you usually know the great gift for them too, you must also love receiving gifts. Always surprising! EXCEPT, when you don't know what the hell to get them. Especially, your siginificant other! My lord! I wish guys were just as easy as shopping for girl gifts. Girls typically either get jewelry, roses, chocolates, something all cute and lovey. Guys... that is a difficult one. Can't really get them a neckalce, or roses, or a plush animal! C'mon! But, I'm almost finished my shopping. Finished my boyfriend's gift today. Needs a little extra but that will be done closer to christmas!
Had a swell day with my very close best friend. Rarely see her anymore since she moved schools. It was a great time! Now I need to figure out what to get her! (: All I am waiting for is the break, slepeing in. Not going to school in the cold mornings when it's all dark (even though I have a first period spare). Celebrate Christmas and New years! Then soon after that will be finals, then valentines, then Hawaii, then my boy;s birthday. YIKES! And I also plan on getting his birthday present from hawaii! That'll be new :D.
Anywho... 6 and a half more days of school. Thank you God!
Stay cool and be in school! I'll think of something more meaningful to talk about next time! :D
XO
Beginning
Hello there everyone! Just another typical teenager who would rather type and tell then write in a diary! (:
I'll start off by saying a little bit about me. I am a teenager, age is but a number. Naturally dirty blonde but dyed my hair completely to bleach blonde, and a little worried the bleach has gone to my brain. I used to do crazy things such as put twoo different colours in my bangs, it was a lot of fun to be creative. I go to a normal high school but also am definitely not the smartest in my classes. But overall, it is a somewhat grand ol' time. I love too many musicans and bands to say a favourite. I love watching a tv series but they often change or I get side tracked. Most inspirational nook as a child is Gentle Willow, for children about dying and that I remember to this day is Forever by Judy Bloom. I liked The Last Song but good old Nicky but the movie came out so I didn't bother. I absolutely love music with a PASSION, I know everyone says that, but I couldn't live without it and hope to possibly have a future with it. I love fresh things! In a relationship in a crappy city, but what else is new?
I decided to start blogging (again) because of my friend. She too has a blog. I rememebered I had one from a while ago but forgot all about it so I had to make a new one. Just thought I'd have a place to put my thoughts and random things on. Possibly get people thinking or even laughing. My life definitely is NOT a normal one, it's hard for even me to keep up with it. It just keeps going forward. I'll be sure to update it every now and then but I'll do that now as well!
Welcome those, and thank you for reading this! Means a lot!
I'll start off by saying a little bit about me. I am a teenager, age is but a number. Naturally dirty blonde but dyed my hair completely to bleach blonde, and a little worried the bleach has gone to my brain. I used to do crazy things such as put twoo different colours in my bangs, it was a lot of fun to be creative. I go to a normal high school but also am definitely not the smartest in my classes. But overall, it is a somewhat grand ol' time. I love too many musicans and bands to say a favourite. I love watching a tv series but they often change or I get side tracked. Most inspirational nook as a child is Gentle Willow, for children about dying and that I remember to this day is Forever by Judy Bloom. I liked The Last Song but good old Nicky but the movie came out so I didn't bother. I absolutely love music with a PASSION, I know everyone says that, but I couldn't live without it and hope to possibly have a future with it. I love fresh things! In a relationship in a crappy city, but what else is new?
I decided to start blogging (again) because of my friend. She too has a blog. I rememebered I had one from a while ago but forgot all about it so I had to make a new one. Just thought I'd have a place to put my thoughts and random things on. Possibly get people thinking or even laughing. My life definitely is NOT a normal one, it's hard for even me to keep up with it. It just keeps going forward. I'll be sure to update it every now and then but I'll do that now as well!
Welcome those, and thank you for reading this! Means a lot!
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