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Well today was the beginning of semester two at high school! It's the last semester of my high school life. Excited and saddening in a way. Some people your friends with but you usually only see them at school, now you may have little contact with them after graduation. But, will be so freaking happy that I don't have to go to hell everyday and see people I dislike. Also, I could be at a job making moola.

Got another first spare and taking Clothing 30 in period 3, right before lunch. It kind of sounds exciting now, I was kind of doubting it thinking I should drop it. But, I really think that I can use it in my future and make my own things. (: Just, it's been a real long time since I've seriously sewn something. English is going to be a gong show, and math C30 is a small class, and a good one so far. Ridiculously cold though!

So, ♥Valentines Day♥! First, this is my very first Valentines that I've actually had a boyfriend on. Last year, my ex-boyfriend now, dumped me two days before. Wreck! So, I can probably not say what I'm making at home because he may read this. But I'll try to take a picture of what I make and show you guys. So far, only one person knows! Hope it turns out well. Crossing fingers! I also would like to buy a little something to go with it (because what I'm making him won't last long, which you'll find out later why).

Two days after Valentines I am leaving to Hawaii, the big island! Never been to that island before and it sounds amazing and relaxing. Going to be full of cooking, exploring, lava, and snorkeling. I come back on the 28 early in the morning so I am missing school that day, and it also just so happens to be Jason's birthday that day. So I plan on taking him to a nice dinner and spend a nice evening with him on a boring monday.

That's basically my entire next month. In school I will be working on grammar and an essay in English, a project in clothing, course work in math and same old stuff in christian ethics and band. Lame! But yeah, I think this month will go by very fast then soon enough we will have 4 months left of high school. How about that?!

Thanks for reading you losers! Just kidding, lovers? Glad we had this discussion. I am very fond of you... Moving on. Good night fellas!

FML Is Awesome

Something I read on my FML app:

"Today, I asked my boyfriend in a sexy way, "What should we do now, honey?" He answered, "Suck my dick?" I said, "I was thinking of something more... romantic." He replied, "Suck my dick in the moonlight?"FML."

That one made me literally laugh out loud.

A book? I don't read.

I have decided as a little project on the side for my free time, I am going to write my own little story. A little bit about me but in a way a typical teenage girl. I am trying to make it in a way, a romantic comedy? It's just to satisfy myself with inspiration from my own life experiences. Dramatic changes, love, pain, sex and drugs. The story, as of now, starts with her lying in bed the night before school high on extacy. Only have gotten up to the next morning, and it's also something I can work on while I'm on vacation! (: Just thought I'd put that out there.

My Bucket List (Psychology)

Yes, by the way these were hard to come up with because  I have already done many things in my life and they had to be realistic. And I had to give the explanation for each as well.

1. Have a career that makes me truly happy. I always hear about how people aren't happy with what they are doing and how sometimes it is also too late to change their occupation. I want an occupation that I love and want to be at. I would want to do something that I love doing and says a bit about me. I feel that I would have a great job that's connected with aesthetics, music, or some sort of business. I do plan on taking some time off though before I start my career life to explore more about myself and being independent in this world.

2. Get married. It seems to be a specific goal to everyone who wants to be with a partner in their future. That's what society has taught us to be the norm. Get married and have a family. Be with someone and share a connection. I just know that living a happy life and being able to share that with someone I love in the future will make me even happier, and hopefully them as well. Have a good marriage, not one that's about to collapse.

3. Go to every capital in Canada. I feel that it's a bit more reasonable and accessible, also there aren't that many and I've been to many already. I love exploring and traveling so much because that is what I have done many times with my family such as go to the states, Mexico, England, and Portugal. I really want to travel more once out of school and working a simple job to make some money. I also find that it would be amazing to visit each capital as sort of a road trip. That would be absolutely incredible, seeing most of the country we live in.

4. Win a lottery or a large amount of money. This task isn't as self gaining as the others. I would keep some for myself to help me out financially, also depending on when I win it, because I probably won't be a millionaire by then. I would keep some but I would also find a couple of charities give a lot of the money to them as well. My father has done that, and even as a Christmas present this past holiday, a gift of mine was immunizing a community.

5. Speak fluent in another language. I have taken French before for four years but I am not that great at it or able to hold an actual intellectual conversation. If I kept taking lessons or somehow learned more about that or another language I think that would be amazing. Being able to speak to people in another language and maybe even visiting a place where they speak that language. I think that people being able to speak more than one language is amazing, it's difficult to understand, also the grammar is always different.

6. Get my weeping willow tree tattoo. This task I plan to accomplish much sooner then the others. I have gotten a tattoo before and I do plan on getting more and hopefully this one is my next because it has so much meaning behind it. I read this book when I was little about death for children to understand. I like to relate those I know who have past to this because the hardest thing about the person dying is the realization that they are not coming back and what happened has happened. You cannot take anything back after that. I would like to get this tattoo as a small reminder that those I have lost in my life will always be with me and I will never forget them.

7. Go on a vacation anywhere out of Canada with one or a few of my closest friends. This is something I have been looking forward to doing for quite some time. I told myself I would make this happen once I graduated because I'd make sure I'd have the money and the time to do it. Also not too many of my friends are going into school right away either so it would be exploring the self and the world time for us. We always love to be doing something and trying new things.

8. Learn a beautiful song on the guitar, be able to play it, and be able to sing the lyrics to it all at the same time. It's hard, also the fact that I only know a bit of guitar. I would really love to be able to play and "jam" with friends. It sounds and looks like a lot of fun. I used to do it and he taught me a couple of basic things. I just have a tendency to start something and then put it down and find something else and possibly forget about it or have no motive. Serenading someone would be pretty cool too, possibly as a joke. I've always loved the one person with the acoustic and singing, because the music is just so beautiful.

9. Move in with my best friend. You are always talking to them, they are practically family like brother or sister to you, you are super comfortable with them, why not live with them? I think that it's one of the best things to do when you move out of your parents home. We would both be working and living our lives and living together. Sure enough, we may end up moving and hopefully even get my own house to live in. That would be outstanding.

10. Create a famous, or at least recognized, piece of art work. I love art, it's a true passion or hobby of mine. Loved being creative ever since I was young and I even spray painted boards for my walls in my room. No matter if it's an object, painting, sculpture, anything creative and artistic. That would be amazing if I could get it recognized. My best skills would be tracing and shading. Also, free hand and abstract I find to be very unique and beautiful.

This is the Title for a Post!

Hey all you guidos and guidettes! Watch Jersey Shore! Going to be an amazing season, I say.

Anyways, had the cutest little date/meet thing last night. I really don't know what to call it. Went with my bestest boyfriend in the entire world, my bestest best friend in the entire world, and my boyfriend's awesome funny friend. Here is how the night started:

Picked up Sab-Jab, since I was late, we just got booster juice at the mall. Got Jason and headed over to the rink at the Bes. Amazing scenery by the way, I'm not this corny usually but man it would have been super nice to take pictures, and it was a bit chilly but not freezing your toosh off chilly. Carrying on, best place ever! Has free skating and free skate rentals. To be honest, I haven't skated since sometime in elementary school, and I'm in my senior year... been a while. Got to wear those hockey skates for the first time in my life, great! I looked like a true dork too. Kitty ear touque with canada mittens and just layered! Back to the skating, it was a cute little night we had planned. My boyfriend's friend recently broke up with their partner, and I feel bad sympathetically. So, since Sab wants to meet boys I decide, and Jason helped, to intoduce them to each other! It was a great night of skating, nice weather and nice rink. Got to be with three awesome people and guess what! I didn't fall, yet there were close moments. Boyfriend over here was showing off since he was a speed skater when he was young... hehe. We all just fooled around for the most part.

After all that, we decided to go to Timmy Hoes (Tim Hortons) and grab some warm drinks and food. Had a nice chat. (By the way, MAN was Jason a cutie skating with me... just putting that out there) Then I had to take Sab home because her father had an early curfew for her... poo! We went back to Jasons house and the three of us chilled out and watched television. I got to sit there through their bro talk, I was apparently bro enough to listen to it and about how attractive women are. I faded in and out, and was cuddling with him so I didn't care about his 'half' opinions.
Funny thing happened, I was talking to Jason about his friend and my friend... wink wink. And was telling him I want to ask what he thought of her but it may come out awkwardly and he was like I can ask, and this is all being whispered. Then, Grayson peeps up and tells us he knows we're talking about him and I just cover it up saying I was just telling him my curfew. Jason, being the bright trooper his is, says "Yeah, what is your curfew anyways?" Haha, great job. I kind of tried laughing a lot to get off the awkward topic (because it's usually something you normally don't talk about face to face). Got the answer, and eventually Grayson left to go home. Leaving me and Jason, he's such a sweet heart and I am still getting used to the fact that he's mine. Hehe, I WUV IT!

ANYWAYS:
Sorry for killing your brain cells just reading this about a night I had last evening, but I just felt the need to put it out and haven't made a post in a long time. If I get time from this stressful month I will try to post another one.

On Another Note:
When do you think you're too comfortable with someone? Since I want me and Jay to last, I control myself. I know what it's like to have someone constantly messaging you, over protecting you, needing updates where you are and what you're doing, saying what you can and cannot do. I guess I sort of got used to the clinginess, and always talking about us, us, us. I know that's not what a relationship is now. It's agreeing and compromising for someone that you love. Doing anything you can for them and their happiness becomes a main priority to you. They become the reason you breath in the morning and the reason to wakeup. They are the one you constantly check your phone for to see if they texted you. The one you count down the days until you see them next. The one that you can commit to with no worries and trust them with all you have, the only worries you get are because you care. The one you want to show to your friends, not to brag about and show what you got but to show them encouragement and know that there is someone out there for everyone. I believe everyone has that one person that they will meet that has been predetermined in their life. I'm not saying I have found that because it's only the future that holds that secret and I'm not a crazy person that is saying I found him for the rest of my life because I am only in grade 12, but I kind of hope I did. I hope that the search is over now, because there is no one else that I could think of that I would be more happy with than Jason. I want us to last as long as possible. Also, my silly goal is to not fight for a year. So far so good! (:
Going on 8 months soon and super proud and happy with what we have. Anyone else looking for love, trust me... you will find it in the most crazy enough ways. You just have to wait and you'll know it was at worth it and it will come at the right time.

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